JUST friends

I have this friend and we have known each other for like more than 5 years. On 2005 he asked me out and be his girlfriend and i said no.  Now we were still as close as we were. Maybe that's just be willing to keep our friendship. Nothing changed. We are now best friend, but suddenly..  we're trying to hook up and move on to another phase. So after we go through all the things in a few days, we realize.. when we saw each other with different eyes via Skype  HaHaa ~ well, right now he still studying at KL and i'm still here at Sabah waiting to finish up my studies and people might called it 'Long Distance Relationship'.. 

so, we're trying to be together but.. it's very weird and awkward. Back then, it was all about very good friendship and relation, but we manage to break it because of what others thought who we are. We need to strive hard to be humble and just preserve the great friendship that we have eventhough it's gonna be hard at the start still we need to have the acceptance in our heart that we'll be friends forever. Well, as he say it, let go and everybody deserves someone who makes them look forward to tomorrow.

Well, it's really difficult not to fall in love with your best friend, especially if he or she is so sweet and being nice right? But i didn't fall in love with my best friend.. but my love did become my best friend HahaHa jokes! ok ~ it's true. It is not hard to fall in love with a best friend who is always there for you, who you can trust and you can be yourself with the person. It is hard not to fall in love but even you fell in love with you best friend, you might feel the like you are nothing besides JUST friends and that relationship can ruined everything. Life was rocky sometime ago and almost give up hope.. but there is always a new beginning.. let's pray and move ahead.

he is my classmate. my scandalism. Opsss. the best ever partner when doing our assignment, mini-project, hanging out, going shopping, watching the movie, having breakfast and lunchie together and doing every single things together like a couple but still, consider as a my best friend kann Zam haha.. 

sorry babe, didn't mean to make ur girlfriend jealous but she know me kan? haha..

we were closed since in semester 1 until now. 

someone has been told me, 

Pesan aku sebagai seorang sahabat, jangan pernah bercinta dengan sahabat kamu sendiri.. kelak kamu akan menghancurkan hubungan yang istimewa itu, melainkan sahabat kamu itu adalah jodoh kamu sendiri.

p/s : noted for myself

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p/s : looking for Spain jersey 

Last class and last paper!

ini bulan terakhir untuk bercuti since class aku yang terakhir juga akan bermula tidak lama lagi, urghh! last class! maybe i should switch the blame on somebody ahahaha jahatnya. padahal salah sendiri, tapi dia pun merupakan penyumbang kedua utama kepada faktor 'kenapa saya tidak masuk ke final exam' kann? 

forget about it. maybe dengan extend 1 semester ini bermakna aku telah melengkapkan perjalanan aku sebagai seorang pelajar yang cukup cukup adventure. carry 2 paper and extend 1 semester. hah! kan lengkap. baru merasa jadi student yang sebenarnya. konon laaa ~ carry 2 paper tue dah lepas pun, cuma terpaksa extend sebab masalah dalaman dan luaran kot (^__^) boleh lagi happy kann haha.

btw, i'm a lucky girl cos ada jua member yang extend hahaha punya jahat nie. Pie'e and Achap pun extend tapi lain paper. dorang bukan repeat tapi taking subject yang dorang terpaksa drop masa semester 6 and aku pula terpaksa repeat paper since aku tak boleh nak amik Penilaian Khas, so go on jak lah.. 

bila dah ada peluang terakhir macam ni, means, kena lah buat yang terbaik. memula rasa segan gak.. macam nak sorok jak muka di bawah bantal everytime keluar ke mana-mana ~ konon lah. ye la, member lain dah grad tapi terpaksa repeat and extend kan. suppose there's nothing problem and i could finish my diploma without any intention tapi tue laa. bila dah buat silap and tahu mana yang baik mana yang buruk, baru sedar. 

so, rasa bersyukur juga bila parents pun tak hentam banyak even pada mulanya memang kena marah teruk sampai nangis-nangis call Joe tapi bila dah call tak pula tercakap. haha silly me. sorry babe. hanya kau sahaja yang berada di fikiran aku masa tue. nak call Imah pula, masih dalam proses memujuk kan. hehe.. bila Joe pun dah cakap something yang naik kan semangat balik, baru lah cool down sket emosi tue but still nangis lagi. why me so childish ouhh? dush! dush! dush!! 

then my siblings pun give their support and encourage me supaya tidak down and wake me up from the silly stupid doing things. hah! see the words. how teruk nya aku masa semester 6 nie >.< my aunty also give her support and itu menyedarkan aku. kenapa perlu malu sedangkan itu silap sendiri and bila peluand tue dah datang, grab it. don't let it go. betulkan silap dulu and fight habis habisan. make sure last paper ni will give the best shot mark ever. Fuuhhh ~ mama ( i was called my aunty 'mama') thank u sangat sangat. i will do my best untuk last paper nie. 

so now, menunggu waktu kelas bermula and since kelas pun cuma 2 kali dalam seminggu so maybe aku kerja part time. need to find my own pocket money since dah extend 1 semester, rasa bersalah pula dengan mama and daddy so sebab tak maw susah kan mereka lagi, kena lah guna duit sendiri time kelas nie.

everything happened for a reason. mungkin ada hikmah di sebalik semua nie. yes! no doubt. semua yang berlaku ni menyedarkan aku betapa penting nya 'education' itu and betapa 'buang masa nya silly things' yang aku sibuk nak amik tahu selama ni ~ my faults. 

my mom asked me, bila lah nak bertudung macam dulu and i only answer.. tunggu kayan maw kawen dulu lah mak.. then my mom cakap, fikir ajal maut tue boleh tunggu kita? and i was shut down right there. ' ye mak, nanti ~ TehHeehee'

p/s : 1st time wearing hijab macam nie.. sebab takut my face nampak lagi tembam >.<